Floundering

Right now, at this moment, I feel like I am just floundering through life.

I haven't been a good volunteer or student.

I feel as through I have lost me motivation.

It probably is just that seasonal depression, (I hope)!! I will just load a lot of vitamin D and hope that everything turns around. I just don't want to lose sight of my goal..
Nothing in life is ever easy....

Getting motivated!

I have found that I have lost my umpf again.

I need to get back into live, it amazes me that I can be so committed to something and if I have a span of time away, I am reluctant to go back.

From working out to working at the fire house, I just have to stay motivated or I don't feel part of the project.

I guess I am afraid everything has changed completely and I will stutter along without a flow.

You know that comfort level you feel, when you are really a part of the system, a feeling that you are a important clog. I know we are all replaceable, but I like to have the illusion of being irreplaceable. It it a little white lie that makes me feel important.

I found out after my first job that I wasn't irreplaceable.. I really thought with the blood, sweat and tears I put into my first job they couldn't go on without me. I was wrong, they didn't close up shop or become so despondent without me that everyone was on a suicide watch. Kidding!

I just have to get over the first hump and I will be fine. It would just make me feel a lot better if people pined away and showed they missed me by taking out full page ads in the paper.

I guess I just have to soldier on, on my own.

Hello Everyone!

It looks as though spring might of sprung?? Watch after saying that, it will snow tomorrow.

I have been having the worst term, as far as getting to class. I feel as though unseen sources are at war keeping me from class. I want to go, I pay for it! I am really into getting my moneys worth.

I think all my health ailments and parents that are falling off their 4-wheelers feeding cows are fixed!

I am having a problem figuring out exactly what to do on the labs that can be done at home, but hopefully I will look at it with fresh eyes today and the world will be right again....

Talk to everyone soon!

Rebecca's new post...

Hello,

I am making a new post for my computer class. I hope to get straight A's this Winter term.
I am enjoying computer class, it is enlightning..
Ms. Huni has the patience of a saint!!

Update soon.....